"If you hear Ayahuasca calling you, pick up the damn phone." Short story: I had insomnia and nightmares for over 5 years straight and nothing I tried work. I lived with a grey filter over my life, because well.. no sleep is horrible. Mentally, Physically and for your nervous system. I needed at least 2 cups of coffee before I could start my day. While I write this, it has been 41 days of sleeping 5-9h. I haven't had one nightmare. I didn't need or had and coffee for 51 days now. I wake up, and I am awake. These are hard facts, and it was only the tip of the iceberg of what Aya did for me and showed me. I got more from her than I ever expected or could have imagined. It was the best thing I have done in years for my mental and physical health as well as my spiritual growth. Short APL- Love letter: Amanda (an angel), Boris (caretaker), Sascha (the pusher and shaman-to-be), Ramon (Shaman) are incredible. These people are magic and I could not have felt more safe, protected and understood. Thank you guys - you are out of this world. Your deep knowledge and understanding, your personal history and experiences, your connection to us as participant and between yourself... you guys are love, wisdom and play itself. Thank you for being you and doing what you do in this world! I am deeply greatful to have made it with the four of you and would only do it with at least one of you being there :) Longer version about AYA: I heard the call, after I saw an interview with a guy who said he was cured from his insomnia (sleep deprivation). I heard that call loud and clear and every cell in my body wanted me to try Aya. I had insomnia and horrible vivid nightmares for more than 5 years and I tried western medicine, therapy, sleeping rituals etc, etc etc.. Nothing would work and I had more than one breakdown because of less than 2-3h of sleep a night. My intentions/ wishes/ requests to mama Aya were: 1) Please no more nightmares. Help me find a way to overcome them somehow. 2) Please help me, to sleep at least sometimes through the night, my body and mind needs rest. 3) I want to meet the divine 4) I want to see and feel my true power within me, my inner warrior of light. I meditated for about 2 weeks, every morning 5min over these intentions. Results: It has been 41 nights without nightmares. Even if it starts out as one, it changes in the middle and turns into an adventurous fun dream. My dreams are still vivid but oh my... I love them now. Sleeping through: I get at least one cycle of sleep. One deep sleep and every second night I sleep through... my partner is amazed about my new sleeping habits. My nervous system calmed down, my world is more colourful and when I wake up, I am full of energy. For the first time in over 5 years I am allowed to just sleep. To my, that's a miracle and life changing. I am also hypersensible to sounds when I am stressed. I am not as stressed anymore, which makes it way easier for me to not get nervous from small sounds anymore AND she (Aya) showed me how to handle noises that irritate me so I don't have to leave the room anymore, when someone eats an apple or carrott. And well... I got to meet the divine. And she showed me EVERYTHING! She let me feel and see the world, the universe, through her all-knowing curious non-judgemental eyes. We talked and played and discussed the world. She gave me peace for this life and told me secrets about it.. well, I can't tell you with my words... Aya does it better anyways ;) All three ceremonies, she went into me like hellfire, so we could become one.. in a good way ;) She is a magnificient beast, a healer, a mother, my best friend, my soulmate, my intuition., a curious playful sarcastic child. She has a strong feminin energy, that challenges you, plays with you, heals you, holds you, IS you. She is Gaia, mother earth, the divine and so much more. I have no words for what she gave me. How our spirits played, laughed and watched. But I promised her, to tell everyone who asks, about her. About her beautiful spirit and who is she is. And by the way: you should have strong intentions. She is also very demanding and challanging when she cleans you/ helps to heal you by purifing for hours if necessary. It's hard - you have to give her everything, trust her completely and let go of all resistance that you ever had in you. Only by giving yourself over to her (while being more yourself than you have ever been before), she works with you. And that part can be tough and rough. But worth it. I could go on and on and on but well... meet her yourself. You will be dazzeled by her and her spirit (animal) friends. I promise. And no, it's not like any substance I have ever tried or done before. Nothing can prepare you for the power she is and the clarity she gives to you or the feelings. She is not a drug. She is pure medicine, pure energy, a spirit from another dimension. The more you connect to her, the less you need. You are 101% percent yourself, and nothing about your personality changes. It's you and Aya, in the way she decides to come to you. Thank you APL, thank you Aya, thank you to all the wonderful souls and spirits I got to meet and experience. With love, deep gratitude and blissful joy in my heart, Anina Ps: Pick up the damn phone - she will call you until you answer ;)